If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the 'no's on their 'vacancy' signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks,
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
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So what if you can see the darker side of me?
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,tame.
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
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achevons nous pour le plaisir
buvons a nos haines,
distillons de nos souvenirs.
that quote means alot to me, that song does.
i realise i can be quite influential. not to brag or anything, but i've noticed lately that when i tell people things, it somehow affects the way they think about other things. maybe that's why i have a lot in common with a lot of people, and why i can finish other people's sentences even if we're not close. and this is also probably why nowadays i'm getting along with people increasingly well. i find lately that i seem to be considered a 'close' friend by many people who i hardly even know, and i guess this gets scary.
i'm the kind of person who means it when i say, i like being alone. i really do. i hate being popular, famous, well-known, gossiped about, publicised, etc... it's always been a nightmare for me everytime gossip flies. i'm still not used to it. i'm the kind of person who lives a peaceful, self-dependent, and most of all contained existence. i'm outgoing only to a small group of people but i'm not really a social butterfly. don't wanna be, never will be.
they say popularity matters. i don't think so. i'm not popular, but i know people talk about me, and that in itself is enough to piss me off. seriously i wish i went back to how i was in sec 2, virtually unknown and happy with it. i hate it when people pretend to know me when they don't. my public persona, is not always me. it's me being polite, or friendly. the real me can get moody, wants to be alone, and is happiest at home, writing something or reading, or out by myself just reflecting.
i'm not aware of too many things
i know what i know if you know what i mean.
prelims are coming, and i'm determined not to fxck it up. but i can't study 24/7. so, i'm gonna find a way to balance work and fun. if not, i'll go mad. ben's right, i shouldn't be happy of what i have, mediocre grades. i won't settle for less. i'm going to ACSI come hell or high water or stress, and i do keep my promises. friends, i'll still be there for you. i'll still go out shopping and having fun. it's something i need. and i'll still definitely run errands for you, because i'm gonna force myself to handle it.
and so, nothing's gonna change, except the way i see my life. i'm gonna simply shut out any drama, fighting and popularity contests and publicity, and now nothing exists, but my own drive to succeed and my pride.
you're the one who walked right through me
now you're saying that you knew me
when i was invisible.
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go.
don't feel like going to school tomorrow. U.G.H. but oh well i feel accomplished, finished my homework for once (at least amost all). yeahh. not much to blog these days but i'll be changing blog soon? so yeah. love.
OH BY THE WAY! I'M IN LOVE WITH APOCOLYPTICA! Omg. I love En Vie and I Don't Care (featuring the very sexy three days grace dude.) hot video, hot vocals. yeah, and i've fallen in love with sum 41's "with me", too. and totally i bought a lomo. and a dress. i'm bimbo-ing, but i don't care. ah, you know i guess i do miss school - just a little.
... no, actually, not really. i just miss some aspects of it.
Here's my heart, I'll let you break it
Touched your skin and I can take it.
breathe me in, i'm yours to keep
and hold on to your words, cause talk is cheap
and remember me tonight, when you're asleep.
you were right, i can't really focus cause all i can see is...
http://news.sg.msn.com/lifestyle/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1437912
Horrific, a breach of human rights and not to mention an invasion of personal privacy. Really, the world would be a better place if things like this didn't happen and people just lived as they were.
Anyway though, I'd never turn straight even if I had to go for that brainwashing programme.
Ugh. ANGSTY.
But let's forget that. I wanna go late-night shopping. I miss shopping!
I miss B ):
Today was just a brain-numbing day, had a good sleep and a good cry and basically well, I'm being myself again.
'til tonight do us part.
Oh I wanna go shopping, just looking at the stuff at ohgoodnessgolly.livejournal.com. Seriously their stuff is damn cute. HAHA. I'm turning ah lian. AND THEY SELL LOMOS. I've fallen in love with Lomos, EmoBoy I wanna keep yours. Kidding! I shall go buy my own. I like this : http://community.livejournal.com/ohgoodnessgolly/232157.html#cutid1
and
http://community.livejournal.com/ohgoodnessgolly/228664.html#cutid1
blech never mind I'll shop in Perth (:
You know what? I'm happy. Loads of B today and Bel and Sum. She was thrilled with the photo, btw. Yeah. Good day, I tell you.
TOMORROW'S CLASS OUTING! Am gonna attempt to rollerblade with Ben, JH gonna cycle. It's gonna be cool, considering I never went for a class outing ever. Mhmm.
Oh, Maris emailed me, so did Prar, which fuelled the :DDD-ness.
B, Prom Night? Haha. Oh and, ILY.
Alright, I'm now off to fulfill my babysitting duties (N's friends over). Yepp. Text it up.
Mom thinks I look like Rihanna in this shot :
I want this hair, but well I should let it grow out luh.
http://www.javno.com/slike/slike_3/r1/g2008/m01/x66162241311788050_3.jpg
HAHA, AND EVERYONE REFUSES TO LET ME CUT!
Except Sum.
wth.
COME.BACK.NOW.
very entertaining.
Obama got it!
YEAH (:
Okay aside from that I feel like shxt.
Daddy's gone, Mama's not being herself and I hate being sick.
But I'm still making myself busy.
Because, Kim never has time to sulk...
There's a world to save.
Male Lolita : Alright, after so long, I don't know if this is worth it. But I'll be here whenever you think you miss/love me. It sucks that way, but hey, you've moved on.
Prar : So tempted today to stand under your block and cry and wait for you to come back. Idk. I miss you. I wake up and see your photo every day, sometimes it rips my heart to shreds...
Sum : Anything you say, babe.
Sherry : I'M SO SORRY! Haha. But I'll make it fun kay!
but it's over now.
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Scripts: Dynamic Drive
8:47 PM, Monday, June 23, 2008
reduisons nos peines,achevons nous pour le plaisir
buvons a nos haines,
distillons de nos souvenirs.
that quote means alot to me, that song does.
i realise i can be quite influential. not to brag or anything, but i've noticed lately that when i tell people things, it somehow affects the way they think about other things. maybe that's why i have a lot in common with a lot of people, and why i can finish other people's sentences even if we're not close. and this is also probably why nowadays i'm getting along with people increasingly well. i find lately that i seem to be considered a 'close' friend by many people who i hardly even know, and i guess this gets scary.
i'm the kind of person who means it when i say, i like being alone. i really do. i hate being popular, famous, well-known, gossiped about, publicised, etc... it's always been a nightmare for me everytime gossip flies. i'm still not used to it. i'm the kind of person who lives a peaceful, self-dependent, and most of all contained existence. i'm outgoing only to a small group of people but i'm not really a social butterfly. don't wanna be, never will be.
they say popularity matters. i don't think so. i'm not popular, but i know people talk about me, and that in itself is enough to piss me off. seriously i wish i went back to how i was in sec 2, virtually unknown and happy with it. i hate it when people pretend to know me when they don't. my public persona, is not always me. it's me being polite, or friendly. the real me can get moody, wants to be alone, and is happiest at home, writing something or reading, or out by myself just reflecting.
i'm not aware of too many things
i know what i know if you know what i mean.
prelims are coming, and i'm determined not to fxck it up. but i can't study 24/7. so, i'm gonna find a way to balance work and fun. if not, i'll go mad. ben's right, i shouldn't be happy of what i have, mediocre grades. i won't settle for less. i'm going to ACSI come hell or high water or stress, and i do keep my promises. friends, i'll still be there for you. i'll still go out shopping and having fun. it's something i need. and i'll still definitely run errands for you, because i'm gonna force myself to handle it.
and so, nothing's gonna change, except the way i see my life. i'm gonna simply shut out any drama, fighting and popularity contests and publicity, and now nothing exists, but my own drive to succeed and my pride.
you're the one who walked right through me
now you're saying that you knew me
when i was invisible.
6:32 PM, Sunday, June 22, 2008
I want you to knowWith everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go.
don't feel like going to school tomorrow. U.G.H. but oh well i feel accomplished, finished my homework for once (at least amost all). yeahh. not much to blog these days but i'll be changing blog soon? so yeah. love.
OH BY THE WAY! I'M IN LOVE WITH APOCOLYPTICA! Omg. I love En Vie and I Don't Care (featuring the very sexy three days grace dude.) hot video, hot vocals. yeah, and i've fallen in love with sum 41's "with me", too. and totally i bought a lomo. and a dress. i'm bimbo-ing, but i don't care. ah, you know i guess i do miss school - just a little.
... no, actually, not really. i just miss some aspects of it.
Here's my heart, I'll let you break it
Touched your skin and I can take it.
9:12 PM, Saturday, June 21, 2008
so breathe in so deep,breathe me in, i'm yours to keep
and hold on to your words, cause talk is cheap
and remember me tonight, when you're asleep.
you were right, i can't really focus cause all i can see is...
8:25 PM, Saturday, June 7, 2008
I find this sick, absolutely sick and wrong and disgusting.http://news.sg.msn.com/lifestyle/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1437912
Horrific, a breach of human rights and not to mention an invasion of personal privacy. Really, the world would be a better place if things like this didn't happen and people just lived as they were.
Anyway though, I'd never turn straight even if I had to go for that brainwashing programme.
Ugh. ANGSTY.
But let's forget that. I wanna go late-night shopping. I miss shopping!
I miss B ):
Today was just a brain-numbing day, had a good sleep and a good cry and basically well, I'm being myself again.
'til tonight do us part.
8:01 PM, Thursday, June 5, 2008
OMG SAW A WALLET AT FLASH N SPLASH I'M IN LOVE WITH. Okay, two. One red one and one pink and black Paul Frank one. Sum likes the red (mais bien sur!) and I'm indecisive as per usual. Gahh. Oh Sum looks so hot in that dress, I wanted one like that! Grr. Stupid skinny girl ♥Oh I wanna go shopping, just looking at the stuff at ohgoodnessgolly.livejournal.com. Seriously their stuff is damn cute. HAHA. I'm turning ah lian. AND THEY SELL LOMOS. I've fallen in love with Lomos, EmoBoy I wanna keep yours. Kidding! I shall go buy my own. I like this : http://community.livejournal.com/ohgoodnessgolly/232157.html#cutid1
and
http://community.livejournal.com/ohgoodnessgolly/228664.html#cutid1
blech never mind I'll shop in Perth (:
You know what? I'm happy. Loads of B today and Bel and Sum. She was thrilled with the photo, btw. Yeah. Good day, I tell you.
TOMORROW'S CLASS OUTING! Am gonna attempt to rollerblade with Ben, JH gonna cycle. It's gonna be cool, considering I never went for a class outing ever. Mhmm.
Oh, Maris emailed me, so did Prar, which fuelled the :DDD-ness.
B, Prom Night? Haha. Oh and, ILY.
Alright, I'm now off to fulfill my babysitting duties (N's friends over). Yepp. Text it up.
Mom thinks I look like Rihanna in this shot :
I want this hair, but well I should let it grow out luh.
http://www.javno.com/slike/slike_3/r1/g2008/m01/x66162241311788050_3.jpg
HAHA, AND EVERYONE REFUSES TO LET ME CUT!
Except Sum.
10:52 PM, Wednesday, June 4, 2008
fxck luh, why do i miss all the people i can't talk to right now.wth.
COME.BACK.NOW.
10:47 PM,
that was quite a show,very entertaining.
Obama got it!
YEAH (:
Okay aside from that I feel like shxt.
Daddy's gone, Mama's not being herself and I hate being sick.
But I'm still making myself busy.
Because, Kim never has time to sulk...
There's a world to save.
Male Lolita : Alright, after so long, I don't know if this is worth it. But I'll be here whenever you think you miss/love me. It sucks that way, but hey, you've moved on.
Prar : So tempted today to stand under your block and cry and wait for you to come back. Idk. I miss you. I wake up and see your photo every day, sometimes it rips my heart to shreds...
Sum : Anything you say, babe.
Sherry : I'M SO SORRY! Haha. But I'll make it fun kay!
but it's over now.