If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the 'no's on their 'vacancy' signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks,
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
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So what if you can see the darker side of me?
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,tame.
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
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i know somewhere, somehow we'll be together.
being with you really changed me. but i think it's all for the better. because of you, i straightened up, toughened up. finally stood up for myself. learned to love myself and appreciate what i have. i really wish i could spend so much more time with you, because the truth is you make me think. you teach me to question everything around me and because of that i'm becoming very much more analytical. i love you for it. bad times, good times, i will be there. to hold your hand and to cover your eyes from the things that may hurt you. as much as i can. i wonder what would happen if i asked you to be mine. just, what if. because things are changing and there's something i can no longer deny. then again, i don't wanna screw things up and i don't wanna ever hurt you, ever ever ever. i need you to be happy to be happy myself. it's idiotic but hell, it's the truth. i don't care what happens, stick a stake through my heart or a bullet in my brain, i don't care. i love you and i need you. and who knows what will happen. que sera, sera.
your laughter makes my day so beautiful.
sum : i'm so proud of you. you've come so far and today the respect and love i had for you... almost bowled me over. i love you so much. and whatever happens, if anyone messes with you, i'mma screw them up so bad. seriously. you deserve everything good and you know what... i'll make sure you get it.
i'll be there for you, through it all.
emoboy : i miss you alot. something nags at me but the worst part is that i can't even tell you. and no i do not have a crush on you. i'd never want two of you to break up. i'll do anything i can, just to keep you two together. because if it were any other way, i'd feel something missing. i already do everytime you sound upset. i hate hearing you upset. i care alot, but i don't expect you to do the same for me. i love you alot, even if you don't, as much. i don't care. you're one of the most influential people in my life and my only wish is that you get better soon. in the meantime, i'm here for you. anytime you need to, call me, beep me if you wanna reach me (:
it's all i need, to hear your voice every day.
Bash : i love you, but you need to know that you're not the only one i think about at night. not right now. in 3 months, i don't know how things will be, but if i don't say yes, it's not because i don't love you but rather because i refuse to give you anything less than 100%. i love so many things about you, i could go on forever... i miss you. i wish you were here to get me through the days.
set the town ablaze.
K : we're finally back to normal. please let it stay this way. as days go by, i can finally stop mulling over the past and i hope with all my heart that things will end up good for you.
omfg just answered the survey in MLG. the teacher's gonna think i'm a whacko.
5. Who am I?
The great philosophical debate. Well, I think therefore I am. I have cerebral functions and blood pumping through my veins. I am a human, nothing less and nothing more. I am a by-product of evolution and I have not a soul, but a mind. Good enough?
6. What do I have?
Air, life, and a chance to be what I can be.
7. What can I do?
Anything within scientific reason.
8. What do I want?
To live a life complete. Not necessarily happy and cheery all the time, but complete. Full of knowledge and inner peace. Not just random bouts of laughter.
9. Why do I want that?
Because then I could die peacefully.
10. What is my life purpose?
To essentially revive the logic and ability to think we have lost in the daily tedium of our lives. To question and answer at the same time.
11. Who can I help today?
Anyone, as long as they want to be helped.
12. What I can learn today to improve as a person?
I could learn to never doubt my own abilities and be thankful for what I have.
13. How can I improve on yesterday?
Not harp on it.
14. What would I do today if it were my last ever one?
I would write a last will, remember what it feels like to breathe, and let myself go.
15. How do I want to make a real difference today?
Be there for people, try to understand and most of all, fiercely stand by them.
16. How can I simplify the work for others and for myself?
I could be more precise or careful in my assigning of jobs.
17. Name a childhood regret, something you did as a kid that you wish you hadn`t done.
I don't have regrets.
18. Name something you love to do, but wish you could do it better.
Love. I hardly ever love fully as I'm always afraid of getting hurt. But I hate that and I want to love unconditionally.
19. Name something really big you want to do but it is so huge you can't even get started.
Change the way people see themselves.
but i can't, i can't get up when you're gone.
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12:10 PM, Saturday, February 2, 2008
i only have a few people on my mind. the whole of today. shouting and dancing around in the back of my head.i know somewhere, somehow we'll be together.
being with you really changed me. but i think it's all for the better. because of you, i straightened up, toughened up. finally stood up for myself. learned to love myself and appreciate what i have. i really wish i could spend so much more time with you, because the truth is you make me think. you teach me to question everything around me and because of that i'm becoming very much more analytical. i love you for it. bad times, good times, i will be there. to hold your hand and to cover your eyes from the things that may hurt you. as much as i can. i wonder what would happen if i asked you to be mine. just, what if. because things are changing and there's something i can no longer deny. then again, i don't wanna screw things up and i don't wanna ever hurt you, ever ever ever. i need you to be happy to be happy myself. it's idiotic but hell, it's the truth. i don't care what happens, stick a stake through my heart or a bullet in my brain, i don't care. i love you and i need you. and who knows what will happen. que sera, sera.
your laughter makes my day so beautiful.
sum : i'm so proud of you. you've come so far and today the respect and love i had for you... almost bowled me over. i love you so much. and whatever happens, if anyone messes with you, i'mma screw them up so bad. seriously. you deserve everything good and you know what... i'll make sure you get it.
i'll be there for you, through it all.
emoboy : i miss you alot. something nags at me but the worst part is that i can't even tell you. and no i do not have a crush on you. i'd never want two of you to break up. i'll do anything i can, just to keep you two together. because if it were any other way, i'd feel something missing. i already do everytime you sound upset. i hate hearing you upset. i care alot, but i don't expect you to do the same for me. i love you alot, even if you don't, as much. i don't care. you're one of the most influential people in my life and my only wish is that you get better soon. in the meantime, i'm here for you. anytime you need to, call me, beep me if you wanna reach me (:
it's all i need, to hear your voice every day.
Bash : i love you, but you need to know that you're not the only one i think about at night. not right now. in 3 months, i don't know how things will be, but if i don't say yes, it's not because i don't love you but rather because i refuse to give you anything less than 100%. i love so many things about you, i could go on forever... i miss you. i wish you were here to get me through the days.
set the town ablaze.
K : we're finally back to normal. please let it stay this way. as days go by, i can finally stop mulling over the past and i hope with all my heart that things will end up good for you.
omfg just answered the survey in MLG. the teacher's gonna think i'm a whacko.
5. Who am I?
The great philosophical debate. Well, I think therefore I am. I have cerebral functions and blood pumping through my veins. I am a human, nothing less and nothing more. I am a by-product of evolution and I have not a soul, but a mind. Good enough?
6. What do I have?
Air, life, and a chance to be what I can be.
7. What can I do?
Anything within scientific reason.
8. What do I want?
To live a life complete. Not necessarily happy and cheery all the time, but complete. Full of knowledge and inner peace. Not just random bouts of laughter.
9. Why do I want that?
Because then I could die peacefully.
10. What is my life purpose?
To essentially revive the logic and ability to think we have lost in the daily tedium of our lives. To question and answer at the same time.
11. Who can I help today?
Anyone, as long as they want to be helped.
12. What I can learn today to improve as a person?
I could learn to never doubt my own abilities and be thankful for what I have.
13. How can I improve on yesterday?
Not harp on it.
14. What would I do today if it were my last ever one?
I would write a last will, remember what it feels like to breathe, and let myself go.
15. How do I want to make a real difference today?
Be there for people, try to understand and most of all, fiercely stand by them.
16. How can I simplify the work for others and for myself?
I could be more precise or careful in my assigning of jobs.
17. Name a childhood regret, something you did as a kid that you wish you hadn`t done.
I don't have regrets.
18. Name something you love to do, but wish you could do it better.
Love. I hardly ever love fully as I'm always afraid of getting hurt. But I hate that and I want to love unconditionally.
19. Name something really big you want to do but it is so huge you can't even get started.
Change the way people see themselves.
but i can't, i can't get up when you're gone.