If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the 'no's on their 'vacancy' signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks,
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
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So what if you can see the darker side of me?
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,tame.
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
Hedonist, headbanger, heathen.
Sapphic, self-sustainable, smart (enough).
Musical, melancholic, me.
Twisted, tempremental,
Determined, decided, disjointed.
Fast, fierce, free.
That's me in a nutshell, if I could fit into one anyway.
Who can tell me what love is?
I wish you could.
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i DO love you.
not like that, but i DO.
you know why i don't call? I'm not allowed to make international calls. and i don't even know when you're home and when you're not, and boy would Merriem just kill me if i did call. i do miss you. it's been ages. if you think that my shortened emails are me not caring, then you are naive. it just means i'm losing the ability to rant. stupid as it sounds. you have no idea how things are like and if you did, i'm sure you'd be there, but the truth is you get mad at me so often. the decisions i make are my decisions. live with them. yeah, it hurts, but weren't you the one who told me never to hurt for more than an hour? or was that someone else who looked like you. these days you're so incredibly bitter and sometimes your laughter is hollow... i asked you why and you said,"not like you could help anymore." i'm TRYING, i would be able to help if you didn't close up so much, so often. it sucks that when we broke up, you just refused to accept it. ACCEPT IT. please. get this done with, and don't keep bringing it up cause it's not gonna happen. alright?
my energy just went downnnnn.
thank you Ashley for that note.
because of you, i try to keep my head up high.
as Ben said today, there's no 'stupid things'.
only stupid people who do things.
and it's true,
we as humans can blame our misfortune on everything from god to superstitions to imaginary heath problems to influence,
but who are we not to look at ourselves, blame ourselves for once, and take the fall for whatever we do?
we are too young, too proud to understand.
i'm gonna end that.
i wanna face the world.
i wanna go through something big.
i wanna INSPIRE someone, give them renewed hope.
i wanna find the meaning of life, even if it kills me.
because i wanna learn to live.
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10:33 AM, Thursday, March 20, 2008
i'm sick of your accusing me of not loving you.i DO love you.
not like that, but i DO.
you know why i don't call? I'm not allowed to make international calls. and i don't even know when you're home and when you're not, and boy would Merriem just kill me if i did call. i do miss you. it's been ages. if you think that my shortened emails are me not caring, then you are naive. it just means i'm losing the ability to rant. stupid as it sounds. you have no idea how things are like and if you did, i'm sure you'd be there, but the truth is you get mad at me so often. the decisions i make are my decisions. live with them. yeah, it hurts, but weren't you the one who told me never to hurt for more than an hour? or was that someone else who looked like you. these days you're so incredibly bitter and sometimes your laughter is hollow... i asked you why and you said,"not like you could help anymore." i'm TRYING, i would be able to help if you didn't close up so much, so often. it sucks that when we broke up, you just refused to accept it. ACCEPT IT. please. get this done with, and don't keep bringing it up cause it's not gonna happen. alright?
my energy just went downnnnn.
thank you Ashley for that note.
because of you, i try to keep my head up high.
as Ben said today, there's no 'stupid things'.
only stupid people who do things.
and it's true,
we as humans can blame our misfortune on everything from god to superstitions to imaginary heath problems to influence,
but who are we not to look at ourselves, blame ourselves for once, and take the fall for whatever we do?
we are too young, too proud to understand.
i'm gonna end that.
i wanna face the world.
i wanna go through something big.
i wanna INSPIRE someone, give them renewed hope.
i wanna find the meaning of life, even if it kills me.
because i wanna learn to live.