12:02 PM, Tuesday, March 18, 2008
je nais hier,je vis aujourd'hui,je meurs demain.that poem made me think. about how we take such small things and turn them into huge mountains. really, all we need to do sometimes is just laugh it all off and learn to live life. calmly, peacefully, quietly. i love the paysage, the compagne, anywhere where i can stop myself from sweating the small stuff.
yes, Bash, that was for you too. i know right now it matters alot, but trust me in a few years you won't remember my name, and that's how it's supposed to be.
i miss AZ alottt.
i miss jumping the fence and reading the signpost in the field and all.
i miss detention with the jaxasaurus.
gahh. nostalgia sets in.
you know what i also miss?
Ben.
idk, she means alot to me.
and well, if not for her, i'd be immature. or more than i already am anyway. i wish we spent more time together.
and i know, you can see right through me.my mom says i seem quite 'manja' today. haha, i guess so. i wanna be loved up. but no luck luhh, the only love i feel is from the carboxylic acids in my chem book and my purple marker that died on me. loserface, i know.
kay why do i miss everybody suddenly.
i even miss Katt because today at Bishan i saw a bung who looked like her, only with more lip piercings and shorter hair. HAHA. i swear i wanted to hug her and scream,"KITTY KITTY KITTY KATTTTT!"
and i miss Friend.
who didn't come today.
and i hope she comes tomorrow.
the space behind me in the hall today felt empty.
haven't spoken much since Friday, so yeah...
and i don't feel right when you're gone away.SUM!
you remind me so much of Ben, and that's the greatest compliment i could pay you.
you were wrong about one thing though,
i'm not the one to motivate you,
you're the one to motivate
me.
thanks for being a rock of support.
i know you got my back, that be a fact.wow, things DO change.
i distinctly remember Mike saying,"I won't ever fall in love."
and now he has girlfriend problems.
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but that's the thing about life... you have to try and keep up with it.
I can dance and win at games
Like backgammon and life.